There's a certain person in my field that I really envy.
He's an engaging public speaker, a prolific writer, and every time I turn around, it seems, he has a new, creative idea, that turns into a magnificent project.
I will read his books, or hear him speak, and think, boy, what a gifted and creative person. Try as I might, I cannot write, talk, or generate the kind or the quality of work that he does. So all I'm left with, is envy.
Of all the seven cardinal sins, Envy is the only one that doesn't have some sort of consolation. I mean, if I were a glutton, at least I would be able to eat good steaks. if I were slothful, at least I get to sleep in, Etc. The problem with Envy, is it that's all you get.
However, I do get one thing, one thing, that is enough to redeem all of those sad thoughts of envy.
In Sunday's gospel, we will hear about two of Jesus's disciples, James and John as they become enticed by Envy and selfish ambition. Jesus will use this opportunity to remind us disciples of the importance of humility, service, and living lives that value our position in the eyes of God more than in the eyes of the world.
When I feel envious, I'm reminded of how God gives gifts to God's people. Everyone is different, because there's a whole lot of repair that needs to be done around here. And when I hear a compelling talk, or read an inspiring book, instead of spending too much time envying the speaker or the author, I try to double down on the unique gifts that God has given me.
Sure, they may not be the gifts I wish I had, but that's not up to me to decide, thank God - they are the gifts that God has decided to give me, and the best thing I can do with them is use those for God's glory.
So the next time you're feeling envious, don't let it get you down - use it to lift you up, to a deeper realization and awareness that you are God's beloved, doing an important piece of God's work that only you can do. Be confident in who you are, and whose you are, because God is probably using us more than we know.
So the next time you're feeling envious, don't let it get you down - use it to lift you up, to a deeper realization and awareness that you are God's beloved, doing an important piece of God's work that only you can do. Be confident in who you are, and whose you are, because God is probably using us more than we know.
